All the Negativities, SCREW YOU.

4 days since I last updated! As you can tell, I haven been my usual self lately. :/ And I was never like that. Thinking back, nothing could really steal the most precious thing I ever own; my smile, away from me.

But, what happened?

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Hell yeah, I'd want the old bubbly kit back.

I want the "I dont give a damn attitude" back.

I want the cheerful me back.

I want the optimistic me back.

Everyone who has really known me well enough, love me, have been waiting for this day to come ever since. Really sorry to have kept my loved ones worrying.

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How contradicting huh? I used to be the one cheering people up, lifting the atmosphere up; but now, I can no longer do the same.

Nothing goes my way. Thats how pathetic it is.

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I'd rather lock myself up in the house, just spending time with my parents, than stepping out of the house. I dont even wanna cont all the damn event jobs that interest me all this while.

NO. Not at all. I'd rather stay in my mom's cafe, helping her out, than to PRETEND that Im happy working with others. I just wanna isolate myself. Thats how bad it is.

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I.Dont.Know.Whats.Wrong.With.Me.And.I.Think.I.Am.Sinking.Into.Depression.Soon.

*FUCK IT!*

Actually, I do know. But, I choose to avoid. That's all. :/

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p/s. some people take things way too seriously, stop being so uptight and just maybe you'll enjoy life a bit more. - Will constantly repeat in my head. and dont spend forever trying to figure things out, cause many things arent meant to have answers.